Get Over It

I'm so tired
I want to sleep a long blank slumber
I don't want dreams
I don't want to be woken
Just a death like sleep
I'm tired
Tired of this world
Tired of my parents
Tired of your words
Tired of myself
Of my mind
Of who I've become
Of what I become at my worst
I want to leave
Be alone
Be calm
Have a peace of mind

I hate how weak I am
So stupid
So weak
With a ridiculous trigger
So ridiculous
Others have faced worse
Much worse
I'm not special
I don't have it that bad
That's why
Just get over it
Why can't I get over it?
WHY CANT I GET OVER IT?
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?